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I've let myself down.
I changed for people who no longer mean anything to me.
I've let my friends down.
I let my parents down.

False hopes kill.
There's nothing worse.
I'm not as happy as I used to be, and I hate it.

People take me for granted, and I let them.
I'm a doormat to anyone who wants to use it.
I used to be stronger, and I used to not care.

"Here's to the nights we felt alive,
here's to the tears you knew you'd cry
here's to goodbye, tomorrow's gonna come too soon."

I've given up any ounce of hope I once had, and it was well overdue.
You can't count on anyone but yourself, and I realize that now, more than ever.

Everyone's a let down.

Words of wisdom for myself:
Don't rely on other people to generate your happiness, because for the few moments you spend happy, they will let you down, and you will hit the ground harder than ever.
Don't give in to someone's bullshit, in the long run, they only spoke those words, because they know the right way to use them. They never meant any thing of it.
Don't be weak, and let people take your willingness to forgive and forget for granted, you will get walked all over.
Keep the people who've been there for you when you needed it most close to heart, forget those who lie when they "promise" they'll pick you up when you're down. It's a waste of time.

"Silly me for thinking honesty is something given free."

I'm done being unsubstantial.
I've gotta grow up at some point, and realize who I need and who I don't need.
I'm filtering out the bad people in my life.

"it snowed today, it's the middle of july
I guess it's just a reminder of how cold you really are."