alymarie

There comes a point in time where you there's nothing more to do.
You can't keep trying to fix someone who is no longer fixable.

basically, what it comes down to is "every man for himself"

My mom told me the other night
"you need to focus on yourself more, and stop worrying about other people"

truth be told, that's almost impossible for me.
I've always been one to try and make everything better for everyone.
And when one person is upset, I feel like I failed.

Nothing will ever change that, no matter what.
I hate when people go against my word.
DO NOT ask for advice if you're not going to use it.

I need to learn to stop caring so much.
yeah, it's great to see all my friends and family happy,
but there's nothing great about myself not being happy.
One of my best friends always repeats to me, "you can't be everyone's best friend"
and now, I know what she means.
I can't always win with everyone.
I can't always have everyone like me.
I can't always fix everyone.

Life's tough, and I guess this is just something I'm going to have to learn to deal with.

ANYWAY.

I find myself missing people who I told myself to stop thinking about.
but it seems the more you try to stop thinking about someone, the more they pop into your mind.
I'll be fine.

I've been in Florida for the past week, and truthfully, I'm not ready to come home at all. It's been well over 100 degrees and sunny here EVERY day. I looooooove it. I met some great people, too.
one of which being Sarah, my friends step-mom.
She's currently going through chemo treatments, and is coming up to her last one on Thursday.
If you want to meet someone life-changing, meet her.
she's -hands down- one of the most amazing people I have EVERRRRRRR met.

Warped in like a weekish.
I can't wait to reunite with friends I haven't see for a real long time.
I know it'll be great.

and to end this novel, I will leave you with a few of my current favvv songs..
Skeptics and True Believers- The Academy Is...
Real- Goo Goo Dolls
Stay Together For The Kids- Blink 182
Champagne's For Celebrating (I'll Have a Martini)- Mayday Parade
Holiday From Real- Jack's Mannequin
Your Body is A Wonderland- John Mayer
Surprise, Surprise- The Starting Line.